Totengott666, 33

Hi my name is kyle i am gay i have recently just came out to my family and not being discriminated against except for my sister.She knows what i am going through everyday i feel nothing but pain and suffering so much that i want to kill myself.I am hoping to find someone that is committed to love and loyal to me like an Aries and Aphrodite for twelve years i have been alone i have been mistreated and abused by everyone including my own family always dictating and telling me what to do and how to dress well no longer fist i wanted to be goth then a nazi which wasn't really me but now i know my true self i am a homosexual looking for true committed love if i cannot find love then i will find death.What i hope to find in a man of my dreams i want him to be well fit 5-8 slim and slender worksout every day has long hair either black blond or dirty blond i don't care i don't mind if he has a few piercings and tattoos as long as he is HIV- and does't do any drugs . I am also looking for someone who might know how to play a synthesizer if i spelled it right so i can create a band.I into vampires because i am one and no i haven't seen twilight yet. I haven't been in the sun since 8th grade because every time when i try to get a tan i tend to get burned real easily.And lately i have been more nocternal i don't know if i spelled it right .Right now i live with Christians in my house who i hate so much they wont let me be who i am or practice my faith which is paganism.I really hope that i can try and find someone because everyday i feel nothing but pain and i just want it to end.And my heritage is mostly European so like English Scottish Irish Viking and Thracian who are Greeks.I like to study stuff on mythologies and languages like old Norse, Greek, German, Latin, mostly the Indo-European languages.I do wear glasses but i prefer night then day because the sun hurts my eyes.Now i really hope someone can answer my prayer i am just tired of being sooo alone. You just don't know