|Posted: Post subject: Others Like Me....
|Others like me........... by Fullmetal.
I dwell in the unknown, the darkness that lurks in my own heart and mind.
lost and wandering ,I stumble and fall,but to where?
I know not.
Am i awake or dreaming? nights filled with scenes that I believe most people would keel over and die from...
the darkness that lurks there,waits for me to slip. to let down my guard so it can pounce.
It is not the visons ,the colors or the smells of my dreams that scare me
it is the fact that they DO NOT scare me. Disturbed by them? yes. Hate to relive the past? yes. My heart,blocks me,leaves me unguarded,vulnerable.
So I search.. seeking answers to questions I can not word,because I am lost.
I knew of no one who was like me.. not ever. For years I dwelt in silent torment. When I would say.. can you hear that? but no one could, to know before anyone of my friends,to answer them before they spoke, to dream of things before they happened, to want something that repulsed others,to never be accepted,to always be.... different,and never know why.
why i could FEEL every emotion around me and be overwhelmed by it, not just around me but thousands of miles away from and still feel, excitemnet,joy,anger,love!
This had no name for me,no identity.
how can i have lived for soo long in darkness,thinking I was wrong, being told I was wrong,being told everything i was was bad. yet never accepting their opinions.I had to believe there were others..others like me.....[/code]